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[18 Nov 2009|11:21pm] |
I got a Minolta XD 11 at a thrift store this weekend for forty bucks. It also came with a flash that attaches to the hot shoe. I will post some pictures once I get them developed.
My girlfriend got a new kitty that is going to move with us to Cedar. It's sort of like the cat is our kid, and we're getting married. It makes me feel weird sometimes; how heteronormative we are.
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[14 Oct 2009|06:21pm] |
I just want to take the time to appreciate my girlfriend.
I've been having a rough time lately, what with work, missing my Cedar friends a lot, and trying to get school stuff worked out. Basically I had a mini-meltdown, and she was there for me in a way no one ever has been. It's so nice to have someone come up to you and hug you because YOU need it, not because they want you to feel better for their own reasons. She's super funny, smart, cute, sweet, and a little retarded. I really like this lady a lot. </ end mush>
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[25 Sep 2009|07:01pm] |
Also, after reading This article on Bilerico I have learned that there is a movement (mostly with MTFs) to stop saying "Transgender" or "Transsexual" but rather "women with an operative past."
WTF?!?!?!
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[25 Sep 2009|06:23pm] |
I really wish I had more important things to talk about, but it's nice not having anything to worry or stress out about... for once.
I've had the WORST poops for the past couple days. Arrrggghhh! My butt is sick of this shit. (BAHAHHAHA) I think this is caused by the fact I drank some "expired" juice. It was just past the "sell by" date, and there wasn't an expiry date on the bottle. In my defense, it was long past the "sell by" date.
I have two questions, live journal; Question One: Why is it that everyone and they mama is getting fucking married? On Facebook, for example, I get a new friend request. OHHH! This is a childhood friend! Won't it be fun to look at their pictures and see how ugly they----- they're married! AHGGHHHHGHHGH! It's not as fun to make fun of ugly childhood friends if they are married.
Question two: Why do the insecure single people have to run around yelling about how they are single? Is it this thing in which they try to convince themselves that being single is cool or something? For most people, in many circumstances, I could care less if you are single or dating someone. My main interest in people is friendship, so I rarely care about their dating status-- unless it is causing them extreme emotion, or it affects our friendship.
Also live journal, I made this while pooping.
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[23 Sep 2009|02:40pm] |
So, I don't really have a whole lot going on. Which is really boring. I applied to Westminster, but my application won't even be processed for admission until I take a math class that is higher than 1040 and another physical science course.
Ughhhhhhh. So I guess it's back to SUU, at least for a semester.
The plan is this: If I am selected to be a Rider on Equality Ride, I will do that this winter/spring. If not, I will return to school for the spring semester. I asked Alex if she maybe would think about moving up to Cedar City with me. We're just thinking about it, and I think we're leaning on us both living in different apartments.
In other news, I love my dogger, Cassie. I really need to take pictures of everything, and I promise promise I will buy a battery for my camera today.
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[08 Sep 2009|07:22pm] |
I applied for the 2010 Equality Ride.
At the time I thought I had a real chance, but thinking about it now, I realize I don't.
I guess I'm just waiting until I can start at Westminster.
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[31 Aug 2009|03:10pm] |
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why is U2 on blackberry commercials?
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[24 Aug 2009|06:32pm] |
dear live journal,
i have a new lady; which is why i haven't been updating a lot. i hang out with her. it's nice.
love,
kourt
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| my beard! |
[11 Aug 2009|08:42pm] |
Dear Live Journal,
This is what my beard looks like.
Love,
Kourt
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[08 Aug 2009|02:29pm] |
dear live journal,
sorry I have been neglecting you so much.
I'm going to make a list of what I have done this summer:
( oooooooooh )
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[27 Jul 2009|07:07pm] |
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viennent sur l'amour mince
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| el-jay, how I have ignored you! |
[30 Jun 2009|05:37pm] |
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So, I've been sorta busy since I last posted.
After leaving Philly, I came home, and my friendz invited me up to Payson/SLC to hang out with their family and see a really cool area of Provo Canyon that has a really awesome natural spring. I got really drunk and high, and a Newfie slobbered on me. (Please note that this was the dog version, not the Canadian kind.) We went on a stoned adventure and I sustained an injury on the slide at the park.
We got home and I worked, and hung out some more, and worked some more. I went back up to Payson/SLC last weekend, and pretty much did the same thing. We went to a used book store (Ken something?) and I got an E.E. Cummings anthology for only 22 dollars. I also got lost while driving in Salt Lake. That place is looney.
Since I have ignored you, el-jay, here is a song, I sing to you.
http://www.mediafire.com/?mejxv0pqtxq
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[08 Jun 2009|04:10pm] |
I am currently in Philadelphia.
Yesterday I got pretty drunk at a bar in the Northeast, and tonight I am going to see Jenny Lewis.
Hooray!
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| old friends, bookends? |
[25 May 2009|11:22pm] |
How long do I have to wait for people to think of my opinions as valid or worthy, instead of just being written off as the ramblings of an incredibly messed up individual? I'm very much tired of being put in the "crazy" box.
Why is it that I am mentally derranged for a suicide attempt that happened over a year ago? I discussed it with certain people because it felt important to me to be honest about it. Those people decided to take that information and spread it around like it was their business, when it most certainly was not.
So again the question I'm wondering, is why is it that I am mentally unstable for being honest about my suicide attempt, when there are others within certain circles who have claimed more than one suicide attempt simply for attention? Is this not as unstable?
Why can so many recieve forgiveness without a word of apology, yet it seems I cannot do enough apologizing or act upon my said changes to prove my sincerity? How many more times should I apologize? What length of waiting period is required before I can begin to talk about the hurt that was caused on the parts of others? (some in reaction to my faults or mistakes, some come from their own merrit.)
Why is it that I remain "unstable" and "unworthy" in the eyes of so many? All people have faults and periods of unstability, this is certain. Perhaps others keep their unstability and certain neurocies to themselves. Is this something that those who keep such things private to be heralded for?
So many of these things happened three and half, to four years ago. Have others not changed? Why are so many operating under the assumption that I cannot? I assure you, if I continued acting the way I was a year ago, let alone four years ago, I would certainly not be where I am today.
I've waited so long for my chance to be seen, how much longer must I wait?
To those of you that read my journal: chances are, if you know what I'm writing about- these are questions I ask of you. You need not answer me directly, they are merely questions and thoughts I would hope you would conscider.
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| weddings can suck my cock |
[21 May 2009|05:59pm] |
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I'm so fucking angry right now. I don't even know how I'm supposed to express it. I'm angry and pissed off at my sister. You know, the dumbass that is getting married to a boy (used intentionally) that she hasn't even known for a year, had sex with, lived with etc.
She/my mom fired the wedding decorator. That job has now fallen on my mother. My sister is so unappreciative and just EXPECTS that we all do everything for her. So now, instead of the original plan of me working all day and watching my brother and helping my Grammy while she's off in Salt Lake getting ~TeMpLe~ married, I have to hang out at a MORMON church with a MORMON church lady DECORATING.
I'M NOT THE FUCKING DECORATING TYPE! I'm not very strong, and I have ZERO patience for church ladies.
The worst, it wasn't my sister that asked me to help, my mom had to ask me for her; because my idiot of a sister can't do anything. She is lazy and self-absorbed. If I was getting married, she would not hang out with a person that caused pain to her in her past, and she wouldn't spend hours in a place she was morally and ethically opposed to- say a bar. She didn't ask me to do these things, but just EXPECTS it from me.
I'm only doing it for my mom, not my sister.
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[21 May 2009|11:49am] |
I had the strangest dream.
I was in this band. I played the guitar, and the bucket. There were three other guys; one playing the other guitar, one playing the bass, and one playing the drums. I was the only one playing two things-one of them being a bucket.
We were practicing and decided that we were really good, so the bassist sets down an old school tape player that had a record function on it. We proceed to play our best song. I guess what was my girlfriend in the dream shows up, and we play the song for her. She decides that we all suck really hard, and that I'm stupid for being in such a sucky band and she proceeds to turn into some sort of octopus zombie and devours the whole band and started to eat me when I woke up.
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[09 May 2009|12:39am] |
I recently came out to everyone at my job. Alex, one of the girls that works there, told me that I was "so brave" over and over again.
I guess I can't understand what's so brave about not wanting to die- physically or mentally. I didn't see it as a choice, or anything really to be brave about. If I wanted to keep on living, transitioning is what needed to be done.
I dunno.
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[04 May 2009|03:43pm] |
so I'm in Kanab for da summer. I'm working for my Grammy again, makin da big bux, which is cool.
I'm just gonna work and save my money to move to Philly- so don't invite me to expensive things cus I aint doin it! I gotsta save up dem dollaz.
p.s. My little brother has a baseball game during LOST. What should I dooooooo?!
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[24 Apr 2009|11:32pm] |
I blocked the "Same Sex Marriage Poll" application on Facebook.
No, I don't want to vote. No, I don't really care that much. Too many resources are being used to "get" SSM when we could be working towards legislation that would protect ALL peoples- not just Gaysbians that want to get married.
I guess it makes me horrible that I don't really "support" SSM. If it happens, great; but you won't see me campaigning for it. So, if we're Facebook Friends, stop sending me those requests.
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